I’ve left my laptop open, on this page for the last two hours in the hope that inspiration would come and bop me on the head. It didn’t.
And still hasn’t.
However, it’s been a while and everything all ended rather abruptly didn’t it? I thought I owed it to everyone, and myself, to actually write something.
You all saw my consistency in blog posts falter in the couple of months prior to me going AWOL and the truth is I just got tired of the guilt of not writing, tired of trying to fit in blog posts into my suddenly busy life. Introducing someone new into my life meant the few evenings a week I had to myself, I wanted to savour that time and then the time I spent with him- well I didn’t want to cut that short by having to fit in a blog post. But mainly it was because my life was busy with things I didn’t want to share- good things were happening but it was all mine and I liked that. Blogging filled a gap in my life when something was missing and when that gap was filled the last thing I wanted to do was blog about it.
But I’d just spent the last year blogging about every detail of my life and maybe I will get back to that one day but, for now, I don’t want to do that.
However, just so you can all be safe in the knowledge that I’m happy and surviving here’s a run down of what I’ve been up to….
I got the job. Well- I got the job for 6 months and then we’ll see where we go from there. It’s stressful, pressured, annoying and very rewarding. I have a very mixed bag of emotions about the whole thing.
Things are still going well with Mr Amy Who- he now spends more time in my flat than anywhere else that we’ve decided he should move in.
I have turned 23- As I fall further into the boring non-milestone ages I realise you don’t get the same sense of excitement about your birthday. However, as I got tickets to see Lionel Richie, I am safe in the knowledge that my 23rd birthday was one of the best. Ever.
I have bought a car. Finally- I have my own little piece of heaven in the form of my 55 plate, red/orange Renault Clio- who I have named Ariel. She has been mine for all of one week but now I don’t know how I ever survived without her. It opens up a whole new world- IKEA is now an accessible place to me.
As I have a car I am now into buying CDs again- they aren’t as readily available as they used to be. Woolworths needs to make a comeback.
I’m very much into ‘shabby chic-ing’ my furniture right now. Annie Sloan paint is a God send.
Other than that, life has been ticking along in pretty much the same fashion that it did before. I’m happy and settled and just getting on with my life- so I’m not sure what has made me not want to write about it.
I do want to still keep blogging but in a very low pressured way. If I don’t have anything to say for a couple of weeks I don’t want to feel like I have to churn something out. That was the pressure I was putting myself under and when Mr Amy Who appeared and life became a lot fuller (more full?) – well, something had to give!
To be honest I just want to find my own little niche to blog about- still talking about my life but maybe in a different way, like sharing recipes or talking about how I painted the bargain £8 chest that I found in a charity shop. I don’t know yet, I will find something and this blog post is by no means a goodbye, it just may be a ‘see you soon. I just don’t know how soon.’
So to sum up- I will be back and, to be honest, I’ve always still been here. I still read a lot of the blog posts from the people I’m following and I still love to know about your lives so please do as I say and not as I do- you keep writing!